It's been forever since my last post, I know. Truthfully, I feel terrible about not posting for so long.
My summer... wasn't all that great. It seems like I'm always battling something during vacation. Be it sins, emotions, or otherwise.
During the entire time I've gone without posting, one of the reasons that I haven't blogged anything is because I've been too ashamed to do so. I've been ashamed because I was ( and still am ) fighting something that I know is wrong, yet still do ( repetitively ).
Because of this sinfulness that I've committed, my past summer was spent in the feeling that I was spiraling forever downward, reaching out to an eclipsing sun ( a feeling that really leaves you empty ). I know God will forgive me, of course... but can I forgive myself?
Another reason that I haven't been able to post is that it seems like I never have any time. If there's one thing that I've learned over the past couple months, it's that there's not enough time to do everything you'd like to do, so spend your time on the most important things. God comes first. Of course, I'm saying this as much to myself as any one else who may be reading this.
It seems like whenever I was just about to sit down and write for the blog, something would come up. I'd have an appointment, or someone needed me. Even now, as I'm writing this, I've had a few people ask me to help them do something or been distracted in other ways.
Once again, I appologize for not posting for so long, and I'm sorry if this particular post isn't the greatest, but it's pretty late where I'm writing it ( only time I could find 'time' to do it ). I really want to continue blogging, because it helps my Walk with God, and I hope there may be a little insight in my posts for you too!
Posted at 09:49 pm by Megiddo
December 18, 2004 02:18 PM PST
Thanks so much Hanka! That really means a lot to me.
December 3, 2004 07:54 PM PST
I'm so glad you can remember that God can forgive any sin. He is omnipotent. I will definitely keep you in my prayers with this sin that you're having trouble with. Ask God for help with it because He'll definitely help you. Just trust Him and know that He may not help you in the way you think He will. God bless! I'll be offering up my prayers and sacrifices for you.
October 5, 2004 09:44 PM PDT
heh, have you read any of my posts recently?
We have all been there my friend, it may be different circumstances but we have all been there. There is no sin, no repetitive act, no anything that can separate you from the unconditional Love and acceptance of Christ.
Romans 8:38. read it, study it maybe? memorize it and stand on it. It will get you through any spirals. If God loves you no matter what, and forgives you, who are you not to forgive yourself? If the God of the UNIVERSE can forgive you, surely you can forgive you too.
God bless you and keep you.